One of the hardest parts of healing
is looking at yourself in the mirror
and realizing you need to.
It is one thing to have the scars
the real ones, the ones you try to hide
and the emotional ones
the ones you push behind a silly smile.
You can keep the scars
let them stay there
let them destroy you
from the inside, out.
You can let them heal
open up, tell people they exist
and let your smile that used to be a mask
become oh so very real
But there's a step in between
and it's the hardest one
it's easy to let your scars fester
and it's easy for your smile to become real
But it's hard to say
"I need to heal,
I need to accept help,
I need these scars to disappear"
They become a coping mechanism,
another day, another scar,
and they become part of you,
hiding who you truly are.
I'm looking at me in the mirror
and telling those scars
that it's time to go
I'm ready to start the process,
I'm ready to open up,
ready to get rid of the scars
and become who I've always dreamed I could be.